So yes I am having a PLUM day...poor little ugly me day. It's not really that I'm feeling down on myself, hell, I am really proud of myself right now if I do say so myself but it's just one of those days. Maybe it has to do with the fact that it's 75 degrees in February and I'm wearing flip flops or maybe it has to do with the fact that I work with a bunch of adult aged children. Maybe it's the fact that it's the 1st of the month and I don't have what I need for work and probably won't have it until Monday......and with all the new stuff that has been added, it means me in the kitchen all the time and no time to work on production reports or much else and if they think I am taking it home, wrong. I keep reminding myself that I have to survive only 4 more months of the crap and then I'm out for the summer. I know, so hard right? So glad I am in school so I don't have to work a job I loathe forever and to think at one time I loved my job and the people I worked with.
I come to school right after work because it's easier me to focus in this environment but today all I can think about is how I'm hungry for real food and I can't remember the last time I ate a real dinner and not a bag of baked chips at the time most normal 33 year old women are eating dinner with their families lol. I am thinking about how I would love to have some caffeine but nothing sounds good to me and how I should be drinking water and don't want that either. It's just one of those days. I did manage to get my lab done that is due tonight but I figure we are doing a review tonight for our test on Monday and I have homework all weekend, including when I get home tonight so if I decided to pack up my laptop and go get something to eat that's not so bad, right?
After re-reading what I just wrote I sound like I am having a total bitch fest and feel sorry for me but that's not it at all. I work hard at work and I work hard at school and sometimes, just sometimes I want to say, ugh, and exhale and some days I just don't want to do a thing except nothing. That's it, I'm going to find some food.