Ever Wish You Could Shut Your Brain Off?

In a time where people are just thankful to have a job, I am in debate (the reason why I wish I could shut my brain off). Today I was having some stomach issues so I called into work. By lunch my stomach was feeling better so I went and filled out two applications.

Now please don't get me wrong I like working yeah right  and I really do enjoy helping JT with paying for things in our house but I don't like what I do cheat people and put them in debt but I love the 2 ladies I work with most of the time but I see no future with this company nor does it have anything to do with the medical field, other than debt.

So I am at a crossroads. See, in order to get a good job anywhere I need a minimum of 6 months experience but I can't get a job to gain the experience unless I work PRN (they call you every time, every shift someone is out & if you say no you can assure they won't call you again). I can't work PRN only unless I can get 40 hours a week that works with my school schedule. I did have a job as a CNA but I ended up calling the state and reporting the facility and 2 CNAs and the ADON for various things and decided it was not worth my CNA certification and future nursing license to stick it out there. 

It doesn't help that we don't live close enough to the Metroplex for companies to feel comfortable even looking at me. I don't want to go the home health route because hospitals do not consider that actual patient experience due to it not being in a clinical setting. So my dilemma, stay at my job because it pays the bills and just keep putting resumes out there all the time, crossing fingers and hoping or take a million PRN jobs and hope I can get 40 hours a week that works with my schedule.

If I could work 2-10 I could have a job. If I could work double weekends I could have a job but I can't work either right now. Just praying that God shows me the right path and that my brain will shut off long enough for me to make it through my Algebra class tonight.